8th gondolaz..

Skinny..
is that pretty or scary??
Well actually, its very subjective..
it depends on individual..
To me, its cool, its modern and its pretty..haha!!
Not obvious to admit that i find out, girls including me and my own girlfriends just want to be skinny because it might be, we feel self conscious of other girls being lighter than us..(sampai excited nak bli 'mustajab halia'..) sort of product to tone our tummy and slim down our waist, plus etc uses..hahahaha!!

Hence, as it is a competition between girls, so what's the matter with some guys who keep on complaining their girlfriends? simple examples are,'u ni kurus sgtla', 'awak xnak diet?mcm dh berisi sk8',bla n bla~
Personally, i think(i feel its true:p), every guy like curvy girls.. who had small waist, large breasts, big n shapely butt..eww~
i did hear one or maybe more confession about this..sure, im not lying because its really came from true n primary sources..psst2,'i did hear it by my own ears n he was sitting right here besides me..'..lalala~

I admit, when im growing up, losing weight became an obsession.. But then, i still can not control myself from eating too much! Where most of the people loose weight by eating less and moving more..This is so not me!hu..
Therefore, just to feel less guilty, after im taking too much 'marginal' meals, i used to seek others approval..either im fat or not..(everytime pon, same answer..haha!)
For an example, the command conversation between me and sayang after 'melahap', which now, it seems to become stereotype..

Me :sayang, i gemok x?
sayang: gemok!(senyap)..ala, x gemok..ok la..sayang ni..

hehe..
indeed, i feel very grateful that i have a supportive people around me. They like the way i look and troos they made my self-esteem be higher than i ever..(n sometimes, i used to call em 'bodek keras')haha!! but then, i love them for what they are..kinda person who is always trying to make me happy..even, its fake!:p
But still, i really want to get into shape! what shape?triangle?square?sphera?Hurm maybe, i should try one..SICK!

In that case, to avoid from being too obsess in becoming truly keremping just like Posh,maybe..I love to say that, we should be thankful for what we have now because we are all beautiful in our own way..eventhough, we do feel frumpy or however else we may feel.. So, its better if we get rid of keep on comparing ourselves to others because from here, we can make ourselves feel more insecure..(specifically to this case)

p/s: I feel like im da only one who looking in the mirror and sighing..ish, x elokla!lol~